Maybe I'm missing something here, and I'm not trashing, but this thread made absolutely zero sense to me. I'm sorry, but that's the way that I read it. The only thing that held any substance was your apology for making this "very long post." I think I know what you were "trying" to do, in laying a foundation for future greatness despite recent disappointments, but this thing went off in way too many directions.
JMO
Peace.