Diego-Bucks
Lost in Canada
Wonderfully written. Personally, I've always agreed with Hunter S. Thompson who wrote one day in his cancer years that he never wanted to get to the point where he physically was incapable of killing himself.
I think that Mr. Zeller described his rationale and emotional trauma quite well; this pain is unique to him and yet felt by many of us over through our years. Suicide was his only viable option for the cards he was dealt.
And for the record, I am pretty much okay with suicide as a modus operandi for dying.
One of the issues of many intellectuals (** I use this word to describe somebody who simply thinks, argues, analyzes or mentally explores almost all the time... this mindset is often a dangerous place to be), at least from what I feel, is that they are prone to depression, they are probably more mentally self-absorbed than others (they focus their rhetoric and internal arguments in their own actions and capabilities rather than focusing on others), this depression often allows them to be more fully cognizant when their life becomes pointless and they are intelligent enough to make that private but logical internal argument that suicide is the most parsimonious solution to the challenges in their life.
As a youth, I always told myself that, while I'm not a suicidal person and I've so far overcome my depression... with the way I often feel about myself, suicide is probably the way I'm going to go out. Not sure how I feel about that anymore (I mostly don't like self-fulfilling prophecies), but I don't think my rationale about suicide has changed dramatically. Its probably more that life is very intriguing right now; I find that I quite enjoy living my life for others.
I think that Mr. Zeller described his rationale and emotional trauma quite well; this pain is unique to him and yet felt by many of us over through our years. Suicide was his only viable option for the cards he was dealt.
And for the record, I am pretty much okay with suicide as a modus operandi for dying.
One of the issues of many intellectuals (** I use this word to describe somebody who simply thinks, argues, analyzes or mentally explores almost all the time... this mindset is often a dangerous place to be), at least from what I feel, is that they are prone to depression, they are probably more mentally self-absorbed than others (they focus their rhetoric and internal arguments in their own actions and capabilities rather than focusing on others), this depression often allows them to be more fully cognizant when their life becomes pointless and they are intelligent enough to make that private but logical internal argument that suicide is the most parsimonious solution to the challenges in their life.
As a youth, I always told myself that, while I'm not a suicidal person and I've so far overcome my depression... with the way I often feel about myself, suicide is probably the way I'm going to go out. Not sure how I feel about that anymore (I mostly don't like self-fulfilling prophecies), but I don't think my rationale about suicide has changed dramatically. Its probably more that life is very intriguing right now; I find that I quite enjoy living my life for others.
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